What’s the Use?

My parents downgraded my UOB infinite card to this…

So here I am checking out on the cheap deals I can get… so I scrolled down to the clubbing section. Such a turn on for me, because for me, clubbing is just so forbidden…

Great Clubbing Deals
• The Butter Factory
www.thebutterfactory.com
Not applicable on eves of and public holidays.

Preferred Platinum/ Platinum Exclusive
- One-for-one Asahi Beers all night long every Saturday (valid till 12 midnight on nights with guest DJs)

Tuesdays to Saturdays
- Free entry from 9pm to 11pm
- 10% off bottles (Premium bottles only)

CHILLAX – Champagne Promotion (every Tuesdays and Thursdays)
- Moet & Chandon – NV at S$120 nett
- Mumm NV at S$98 nett

• ZOUK

Celebratory Treats on 21 and 22 November 2008
- UOB Cards proudly presents Dave Seaman on 29 November 2008

Preferred Platinum/ Platinum Exclusive
- One free drink coupon for the first 100 UOB Cardmembers before 12am
- One-for-one on selected housepours all night long at Zouk

• St James Power Station

Tuesday Night Special
- Free entry
- One-for-one off loose drinks and jugs

Terms and Conditions:
Discount is not applicable for bottles, during happy hour and on promotional items.

• The Arena
Free entry from 9pm to 11pm (Valid from Monday to Friday from now till 31 Dec 2008 only

What’s the use of a card like that when you can’t do anything with it? What’s the use of driving a car when you are gonna incur all that ERP, all that parking fee, and all that insurance, and all that fuel? I would rather take public transport. I feel less guilty when I do that. Even when I take a cab, I just feel so guilty about how much money I am splurging. I look at how my parents are so stressed out, and here I am, the only thing I know is to spend, and I can’t even live amicably with them. I must try to be a better daughter and sister.

So yeah, I am so broke this year. So many birthdays. Too many friends, presumably it’s quantity over quality. Pathetic ol’ me. I am starting to feel like I am neglecting people. Always giving empty promises on meeting up, always “pangseh-ing” people. So people are starting not to call me out because I always seem to be giving lame excuses and why I can’t go out. Either I am broke, or I have gone out too many times for the week or that my parents are starting to think that’s all I know how to do. I am so overwhelmed trying to be a good daughter, good girlfriend, good friend, good student, all at the same time. Most importantly, I must make myself happy too.

I feel like a hypocrite. Telling people I’ll come. Oh yes, we will meet up. Oh we will hang out during the holidays. It’s holidays now. I do want to. But there’s only one of me. And I want every friendship to be perfect. Not half-done. At least for the people I care about. It suddenly occured to me that I may unintentionally be using people. Although no one feels like that, but when Jason said “We seem to be friends only during exams”, I felt so odd. Many would advice me to just pick a few and be really good to them. But I kinda like everyone. Bleh. I blame my self-proclaimed independence. I blame my need to be alone many times. I blame my love for my bedroom at home. I blame my wallet. I blame my self-induced-laziness.

Why do people have to hang out at night. I have a pathetic unspoken curfew. I have to reject anything that relates to alcohol, clubbing, late nights, and almost anything that puts me in a more dangerous position than I already am. That includes, going too far out into the seas, or travelling alone or in lone company. It would be exhilarating to explore lands by myself, and take lotsa nice pictures and just soak in the beauty and riches of the earth.

Gosh feels soo vulnerable putting this up. I hate seeing myself like that.

Anywase, toodles everyone, going off to Canada for a week or so. Still can’t get a flight with reasonable price. Anyone with lobang? Let me know!

Wow, not cheap at all! Too many transitions, especially cumbersome in the USA. Not good.